Viciously Sweet.

It’s amazing how one thing. Just ONE thing can break everything you ever believed and bring you right back to your core.

And finally see the you that you used to be inside of you the whole time.

After all these years, I’m still the same old me.

the broken, scared little girl I’ve always been who has been trying ANYTHING in the world to escape from her house.

You’ve been putting up every facade of yourself that you want to be because you are trying so hard to get away from the truth. The truth that breaks you down. The truth that has been holding you down for so many years that you are so sick of being reminded of and yet you are constantly mocked by, by the same people responsible for inflicting it upon you and everyone else.

It’s fucking amazing how the one place in the world, that you are supposed to believe is safe, really isn’t. Not because there are monsters or people trying to kill you. But because people who have raised you make it feel unsafe for you. When your house doesn’t feel like home. And that one person just breaks you down and makes you feel that all over without even trying to.

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feeling better now from my TMJ episode for the past few days! thanks to my wonderful boyfriend taking care of me even from so far away. It’s kinda cute and sweet how much he worried about me taking only a certain amounts of Tylenol and other stuff to help out the pain and last night was just…*sigh* wonderful :) I’m not gonna say how (fucking amazing phone sex)  but it was just what I needed and he is truly my naughty little angel. I can’t wait to finally see him again!! *SQUEE* So now I’m gonna catch up on my studying for finals so I can graduate this semester for once and move on to the next phase of my life. I’ve been wandering around with bed-hair for the past two days so today I wore a Santa hat to cover my bad hair at work. Probably gonna shower later even though I have yoga tomorrow. Things are finally starting to slowly look up for me. And I’m not gonna let my parents ruin my happiness for me this time! ^_^

feeling better now from my TMJ episode for the past few days! thanks to my wonderful boyfriend taking care of me even from so far away. It’s kinda cute and sweet how much he worried about me taking only a certain amounts of Tylenol and other stuff to help out the pain and last night was just…*sigh* wonderful :)

I’m not gonna say how (fucking amazing phone sex)  but it was just what I needed and he is truly my naughty little angel. I can’t wait to finally see him again!! *SQUEE*

So now I’m gonna catch up on my studying for finals so I can graduate this semester for once and move on to the next phase of my life. I’ve been wandering around with bed-hair for the past two days so today I wore a Santa hat to cover my bad hair at work. Probably gonna shower later even though I have yoga tomorrow. Things are finally starting to slowly look up for me.

And I’m not gonna let my parents ruin my happiness for me this time! ^_^

found my iPod! it was under my bed and yes this is my boyfriend’s hat that I’m wearing along with my girl Calvin Klein boxers.  he gave me the hat because he knew I would miss his smell and it didn’t fit him anymore anyway. yes i look like a dork. IDGAF.

found my iPod! it was under my bed and yes this is my boyfriend’s hat that I’m wearing along with my girl Calvin Klein boxers. 

he gave me the hat because he knew I would miss his smell and it didn’t fit him anymore anyway.

yes i look like a dork. IDGAF.

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Hey finally decided to do a video! I’m sorry I was gone for 2 days, I was at Grayson’s house from Thursday to Friday night and had work today. take a look! hope the video works this time!

so I wore my mask for a little while this morning but took it off cuz it was bugging me. but soem people liked it. and my eyemakeup was all green. but i looked alright. although i think i looked like a 13 yr old but yeah can’t help that haha hope you guys like it! :) Happy St. Patrick’s Day! :)

so I wore my mask for a little while this morning but took it off cuz it was bugging me. but soem people liked it. and my eyemakeup was all green. but i looked alright.

although i think i looked like a 13 yr old but yeah can’t help that haha

hope you guys like it! :)

Happy St. Patrick’s Day! :)

i’ll put the picture in a better view of my room…..which is me standing one my bed…..in heels cuz i’m too short from the angle of my webcam….so yeah…haha! btw that’s a bodysuit and a SKIRT that I turned into a dress with a special waist belt. 

i’ll put the picture in a better view of my room…..which is me standing one my bed…..in heels cuz i’m too short from the angle of my webcam….so yeah…haha!

btw that’s a bodysuit and a SKIRT that I turned into a dress with a special waist belt. 

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my interesting/fun day. and for some odd reason i feel like i may or may not have an interesting night as well but i’m not sure.

Thanks for the advice ladies! i tried the tucking in and it work but im keeping these garters on with it. yes i know i look stupid but i can’t get this picture done any better.

Thanks for the advice ladies! i tried the tucking in and it work but im keeping these garters on with it. yes i know i look stupid but i can’t get this picture done any better.

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